Eating Chips

Eating Chips

Like, All the time…

While you may be thinking, what kind of headline is this? I’ll fill you in on a little secret. I love chips….like….I LOVE them. I could easily polish off a bag a day ( I don’t, but sometimes….I do). I wanted to cover this topic, because I think it is important that we all know that its OK to eat like crap sometimes. It’s OK to eat Doritos for breakfast. Why are we supposed to feel guilty about that? I certainly don’t feel guilty. I have come to accept that I will never be a size 2. And that is OK! I would rather finish my healthy dinner and wash it down with some chips, as I watch some tv, and know that my pant size is a little snug, then to listen to my stomach gurgle, and then think about those beautiful triangle zesty cheese Doritos chips that are just sitting in the cupboard calling my name.

I don’t know about you, but when I crave something, I stop focusing on whatever I am doing and just think of that. Funny though, when I meditate, I can’t seem to have such great focus as I seem to have when chips are just sitting there. I may sound crazy, but, I also know that If I don’t get to them first….then my husband will finish them off during his sneaky midnight food raid. I seriously hate if I ward off my craving, and I am feeling all good about myself, and then I give into it the next day and….

THE BAG IS EMPTY! Oh….My……G#&$&#&$@! I don’t know about you, but the level of anger and frustration that arises form the depths of my being is unreal! Then I go on a little rampage….that sort of looks like this…… WHO ATE MY CHIPS! WHERRRRRRRE are my CHIPS!…….DID YOU FINISH MY CHIPS???? And then, I run over to the trash can and pop up that little white lid….and there it is…..at the top of the can…..my zesty cheese Doritos. And to add insult to injury… I can see a few unfinished crumbs in the bottom.. WTh$%$? Are you kidding me? You left two glorious chips at the bottom of the bag!! I WOULD OF EATEN THOSE FOR BREAKFAST!

I wish I could say I was joking. But the sad reality is that I am not. I own it. It’s time for all of us to own it too! Go enjoy that Bag of chips, or slice of cake or pint of ice cream. Enjoy every damn minute of it, and don’t regret it for a second! We only live once!!

(unless of course you have cholesterol or allergies or any other severe illness that it will harm, then please don’t!)

Living with a Chronic illness and thriving…well kind of.

Living with a Chronic illness and thriving…well kind of.

#Floor Life


I was diagnosed with Pots after many years of not knowing what was wrong. I was a healthy very active lady working as a Paramedic. I would respond to a emergency call and my heart would be racing so fast after climbing the stairs to get to the patient, that I would often look worse than they did! I was playing sports, and having to crouch down to slow my heart rate down between plays. I knew something wasn’t right. After 2 years of being told ” you are young, you are healthy, you are fine” and being shown the door, I finally had one doctor ‘listen’ to everything I was saying and he diagnosed me right away. He LISTENED! That is all it took.

Photo by Ferbugs on Pexels.com

Along with beta blockers, these 3 are my daily routine. I drink a LOT of liquids and electrolytes every day, and add salt to every meal. I get a kick out of watching people’s eyeballs explode when they see how much salt I am eating. I always get asked, is that good long term? The answer, is yes. I don’t hold onto salt the same way everyone else does. So I am essentially just topping myself up!!


A little Bit Coconuts

A little Bit Coconuts

We are living in a crazy time right now, and I bet that we all feel just a little bit “coconuts” right now, right? Let’s start our own coconut grove, and support each other, and learn and grow and build up resistance to the negativity around us. At 40, I am still trying to sort out my life. I am battling a chronic illness, and getting tested for others. I try to be the strongest I can be for my family, but sometimes I falter. Sometimes, I just can’t do it. I used to love the line from the Maroon 5 song “look for the girl with the broken smile”. I think so many of us put on these fake smiles, fake social media lifestyle pictures, and behind that all are broken smiles. But we can fix that. By telling you, that you are enough. You are ok as you are. You don’t need to be like the other moms. You don’t need to live lavishly to be happy. Lets all try to be happy with today, and not worry about tomorrow or yesterday. Ok?